Things people say...

There has been something i have had many people say to me these past few weeks and its really bothering me.
"bless your heart"
people say this to me out at the grocery store, church, park, etc... its like they feel sorry for me that I have 3 young kids. well people, you dont have to feel sorry for me. this is my life. the life God has blessed me with and yes it can be hard and there are days that i cry and have to put everyone in their own rooms for a while. but i wouldnt trade it for anything in this world. its my life and i feel so honored that God chose me for this job of mothering little ones so close. so yes, my heart is blessed in more ways then i deserve!

okay thats all for now, and for the record i did 9 loads of laundry today! and i still have 1 to go! haha!

Last Week...

Last week was a tough week. Sunday we headed over to my parents house bc my grandaddy, who has been staying there with grandma, was not doing well. So we headed over there and spent some precious time with him. I sat and held his hand and talked to him and told him I loved him about a hundreed times!! We headed home bc I had to have surgery the next morning so we got home and put the kids to bed. The next morning we woke to get ready and go. Right before I headed out the door my dad called mr to tell me grandaddy had went to be with Jesus just moments before. I just sat there and cried. We knew it was coming but when it hits, it hurts. I went back and forth as to if I should go ahead with my surgery or not but in the end after talking with my mom we decided it was best if I went ahead with it. It was a tough morning, full of tears.
The surgery went well. It took a little over an hour but they retrieved the IUD and super glued me back together! ha! They had to go in thru 3 spots. After surgery we went back to my parents house and spent time talking about grandaddy and being together. The memorial service was on Thursday with a time on Wendsday evening where people came to my parents house and got to see my grandma and mom. It was wonderful spending time with family who we dont see often and talking about my grandaddy and how awesome he was! All 5 of us grandkids got up and spoke at the funeral. Afterwards we had everyone telling us that my grandaddy makes them want to be a better grandparent. How awesome is that?? My grandaddy left a wonderful legacy full of love. I love him and miss him but I am rejoicing in the fact that I will see him soon!
The recovery for me has been a lot harder then I thought it would be. I guess its because it has been nonstop since monday. But this week we have no plans so Im hoping to get lots of rest and maybe clean my house since it is a DISASTER!!!
Thank you for all the prayers and love and support you have shown us this week! Love you all!

Surgery...

So, I have to have surgery next Monday the 21st. Last week was a crazy week, so I will start from the begining.
I had been feeling just awful. Headaches, sick at my stomach, cramping pain...well, 8 weeks after tmae was born I had gotten the mirena put in. A birthcontrol that goes in and I wouldnt have to worry about it for 5 yrs.! So I thought there is no way I was pregnant but just in case, I decided to take a pregnancy test...it was posotive. I cried! I then called the doctor. They said they needed to see my right away. So the next morning before the doctor I took another pregnancy test. It was negative. I was sooo confused. Went to the doctor that afternoon and they did bloodwork and had me go in for an ultrasound. The ultrasound tech told me "well, i dont see anything that looks like a baby, but (long pause) I cant find your IUD." WHAT????? WHAT DID SHE JUST SAY????? They told me it could have fallen out but it could still be in there just not in the right place. So they sent me to get xrays done. Come to find out, its still in there, just not where it is supposed to be. BUMMER! So the only way to get it out is to cut me open.... BIG TIME BUMMER!!!
So I go in next week for a laporoscopy. He will go in thru my belly button and thru a part of my csection scar. He is hopeing thats all he has to do. but depending on where it is he may have to cut me open more to find it. This is only the 2nd time he has had to do this in all his years. Of course it would happen to me! haha!
So, pray for me next week as I go in for surgery. I have had 3 csections but I have been awake for all of them and knew what was happening. this is the first time i will be put to sleep for a surgery. im nervous.
I love my doctor and know this is not his fault and he just feels awful about it. he told me today that they are going to only charge what insurance will pay. so we will not have to pay anything for this surgery. we were very thankful for this!
he told me that since this happened within 6 months of getting the mirena that mirena would replace it for free. I said "no thank you" haha!

BTW...im not pregnant. i truly belive that God had the test posotive so that I would get into the doctor and they would find this out before anything really bad happened!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Woke up this morning, told Matthew bye and started making breakfast for the kiddos. Then I turned on the news and realized it was Valentines Day! So I called Matthew and told him Happy Valentines Day and that I loved him. Next thing I know Jr comes running up to me, throws his arms around me and starts singing " I love my mommy, I love my mommy...." Then Colton comes running over doing the same thing! Best Valentines gift ever!!! Now Im off to make Matthew a card with construction paper and crayons!!! ha!


But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Rom 5:8